nasa huli ang pagsisisi....

naging matapang ako sa panahong ito...
pero sa palagay ko... wrong timing ako...
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....
at least nagpakatotoo ako sa sarili ko...
ito yong bagay na dapat e ginawa ko na noon pa man...
pero naduwag ako...
dahil sa takot ko na may masaktan...
at ngayon ko lang nalaman na ang naisakripisyo ko pala
ay ang kaligayahan ko...
talagang tama ang kasabihang...
"nasa huli ang pagsisisi..."
talagang ganyan ang buhay....
mga tao nga naman...
kelangan munag mauntog bago matuto...

july.22.06


ewan ko pero prang magulo mga ngyayari ngayon...
para akong pinaglalaruan ng panahon...
ewan ko, pero gnun ung nrramdaman ko eh...
minsan, mahirap isipin na akala mo ok na,
un pla, hindi pa, ang masakit nito,
hindi mo alam kung bakit ganun ang ngyayari...


kung kelan kc ngbabago ang tao....
saka naman nila ginagago...
ano ba naman yan.... parang ayaw na nilang
magbago ka for ur own... d lng nman un gngawa pra sa sarili
eh, my mga isina saalang alang ding iba jan...


ang masasabi ko lang....
ako... ngpapakabait na...
pero, bakit ganyan kayong mga nasa paligid ko?
parang gusto nyong maging gago ako habang panahon?
ano ba kasi gusto nyo?
ung gago ako o matino?
hirap nyo ispelengin eh...
nung gago ako raklamo kau ng raklamo,
lagi akong sinasabihang mgbago na ako...
ngayong ngbabago... ayaw nmn ninyo...
gulo nyo rin ha....

_masaya_

july.20.06

sinamahan ko si 6 sa prc...
ngregister xa at kumuha ng ticket...
aun... mgkasama kmi mghapon...
punta kami recto, quiapo, sm manila...

masaya... as in masayang masaya...
nakakamiss ung mga dati naming gnigawa...
hehehehe....
pero in fairness, mas namiss ko xa....

medyo napaisip din ako ng konti....
anung naisip ko?
sekreto...
hehehe....
bahala na kaung mgisip kung anu man un...
basta... basta... basta...

_____05______

xa...

2001

xa ay nakikilala ko during high school ako...
at first, crush ko lng xa...
den nlman kong crush din nmn nya ako...
graduating na xa ngaung year na to...
so it means, mgccolege n xa
at ako nman ay incoming 4th year h.s.

march

once pumunta xa sa skul nmin,
xe my inutos ang teacher nya na kukunin
sa skul nmin, ngkataon nman na nkaduty
ako sa gate nun... aun, ngpasama xa sa akin,
hnwakan p nga nya kamay ko...
at ninerbyos ako...
aba, malay ko ba...

summer 2001

ngtraining ako
ng colt sa qsc... nkikita ko rin xa dun xe
my dndalaw xang fren nya...

few days after dat, invite nya me sama
sa blow out ng graduation nya...
d sana ako sasama kaya lang
andun ung friend kong si may2,
so aun, sumama na ako...
karamihan sa dumalo e classmates nya
at close friends kya medyo hiya ako
kc xempre d ako maxado at home...

after dat clebration, xempre
uwian na...
ung gabi nun,mgktext kmi...
aun... nagksabihang crush kita gnun
tapos un na...
naging kami...
mgkatext kmi mgdamag,
dat time ay globe ang gamit nya at smart naman ako...

kinabukasan, ngkita kmi sa santiago pra sa confirmation
na kami na nga...
aun, ngmeryenda kmi sa cyndys...
nging ok nman lhat khit papanu...

june

pasukan na, xempre dun na xa aral sa
bgong skul nya... at ako nman e xempre sa dating akul ko...
madmi rin kming nging miscommunication,
kc nga, mgkalau kmi...

october

aba, birthday ko sa month nato...
october 5...
dat day e last day ng intrams nmin...
umagang umaga e mdmi ako nreceive na gift galing sa
mga kaibigan at pati n rin sa mga kakilala...
at xempre galing sa kanya...
my nkalagay n note dun na pguwi ko n lng
daw basahin...
since mabait din nman ako, sinunod ko...
kaya ang mga activities ko mghpon ay
nglaro ng chess, softball at xempre
sa hapon, cheering squad...

paguwi ko...
madami din gifts na dumating sa bhay...
inuna kong binuksan ung mga gift ng friends ko...
den, hanggang sa last, ung gift nya to me...
my nakita ako damit at sulat...
kaya inuna ko ung sulat,
binsa ko un...
dko pa nttpos eh umiiyak n ako...
lam nyo ba kung bkit?
nkkipgbreak xa sa akin...

grbe... d ako nktulog mgdamag sa araw na to...
until now... eto ang pnkapangit
sa lahat ng ngdaang birthday ko..

november

aun... wala na kami dba?
pero my communication pa rin kmi...
naging kami ulit this month...
madaming ngyari...
once nga, ngpumta me sa skul nya kc
may inasikaso ako dun...
pero d kmi ngkita..
taz nung second time n punta ko dun...
sinamahan nya ako at hinintay til ntpos ako...


2002

graduation ko na...
umatend nman xa ng graduation ko...
during my blow out, andun din xa...
umatent din sa blow out ko
ang ilan sa mga friends ko
at mga kaorg... SKO...
masaya nmn ang result...


college


1st year 1st sem

pagpasok ng school year na to,
di kmi maxado ngkasama ksi
ngkaroon ako ng iba, gnun din nmn xa...
(twagin nting "6" ung nging krelasyon ko d2)
lagi kmi ngkakasalubong, kung minsan,
nguusap kmi, kung minsan nman ay hindi...
pero masaya n ako nun n mkita ko xa...

2nd sem

nging kmi ulit...
aun... lagi n kmi mgkasama...
naibreak ko na si 6 at naibreak na rin nya
ung mga nging karelasyon nya...
nkilala ko ung mg kabgan nya n nging
friends ko na rin, until now...
dis sem na to ngwork xa,
xempre... suportado ko xa..
(dko n ssbhin kung gaano kasuportado,
ask my friends n nkakaalam if u want)

summer

ngenrol ako ng summer habang
xa nman ay ngwowork...
ok nmn khit papano....

2nd year 1st sem

nginternational ako this sem para
mging classmate ko xa sa isang subject,
accounting1...
ayon, tuloy pa rin work nya...
dami ko sacrifices this sem para
sa taong yan...
(no need to mention, alam na to ng mga friends nmin)
pero ngloko din ako this sem ksi
nging kmi ulit ni 6...

2nd sem

nlman ni nya n kmi na...
after dat... madaming away...
tpos ngkabati din...
wala kming formalbreak ni 6...
bsta n lng walang communication...
nging ok n rin takbo ng relationship nmin...

summer

during this summer, ngenrol uli ako...
xa, hndi...
brineak ko xa ds summer,
pero walang ngyari...
kmi pa rin...
dko rin matiis xe mhal ko xa...

3rd year 1st sem

ok nman kami...
ok pa rin studies nmin...
tinutulungan ko xa sa studies nya
at gnun din xa sa akin...
inenjoy nmin lhat ng activities sa
skul....
madami p ring lkad ang brkada...
and more closer sa family nya...

sembreak

10 days akong ngbakasyon sa lucena
at w/in that time...
(alam mo kung ano?)
pinagpalit n nya ako!
huhuhu...
10days ha?
walanghiya...

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para sayo ulit...

Someday We'll Know

Mandy Moore Feat Jonathan Foreman

[mandy] ninety miles outside chicago

Can’t stop driving i don’t know why

So many questions, i need an answer

Two years later you're still on my mind

[jonathan] whatever happened to amelia earheart?

Who holds the stars up in the sky?

Is true love just once in a lifetime?

[both] did the captain of the titanic cry?

Oh, someday we’ll know

[mandy] if love can move a mountain

[both] someday we’ll know

[jonathan] why the sky is blue

[both] someday we’ll knowWhy i wasn’t meant for you...

[mandy] does anybody know the way to atlantis?

[jonathan] or what the wind says when she cries?

[mandy] i’m speeding by the place that i met you

[both] for the ninety-seventh time...tonight

Someday we’ll know

[mandy] if love can move a mountain

[both] someday we’ll know

[jonathan] why the sky is blue

[both] someday we’ll know

Why i wasn’t meant for you...

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we’ll know

[jonathan] why samson loved dalilah?

[both] one day i'll go

[mandy] dancing on the moon

[both] someday you’ll know

That i was the one for you....

[both] open up the world

[mandy] i bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow

[jonathan] watched the stars crash in the sea

[mandy] if i can ask god just one question

[both] why aren’t you here with me tonight?

Oh, someday we’ll know

[jonathan] if love can move a mountain

[both] someday we’ll know

[mandy] why the sky is blue

[both] someday we’ll know

Why i wasn’t meant for you...

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we’ll know

[jonathan] why samson loved dalilah

[both] one day i'll go

[mandy] dancing on the moon

[both] someday you’ll know

That i was the one for you....

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sana someday i'll know kung

bakit d tau para

sa isa't isa...

para sau to...

Tell Me

Joey Albert

There are nights when I can't help but cry,

And I wonder why you had to leave me

Why did it have to end so soon?

When you said that you would never leave me

Tell me, where did I go wrong?

What did I do to make you change your mind completely?

When I thought this love would never end

But if this love's not ours to have,

I'll let it go with your goodbye.

Why did it have to end so soon?

When you said that you would never leave me

Tell me, where did I go wrong?

What did I do to make you change your mind completely?

When I thought this love would never end

But if this love's not ours to have,

I'll let it go with your goodbye.

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a song n related to me....

sa taong related d2,

tell me all your reasons

kung bakit naging ganun relationship ntin?

PAIN IN MY HEART

Here I am alone in this empty room
And let my mind just fly you to the end
Thoughts of you still linger in my memory
Wondering why my life is not that fair
I could still recall
Those memories of you
The joy and all your laughter
The love thast we've been through
Oh, I can't believe you're gone
Oh, no
Talkin' to myself for no reasons I could find
Findin' out why everything went wrong
Tears falling down my cheeks that
I've been trying to hold
It doesn't know if I could still go on
I wanted you to stay
The tears begin to show
You said you cared for me
But then you had to go
And now I know you're gone
But I don't want to remember
The things (we used to do/that we've been through)
And all the things that remind me of you
I don't want to hear the songs
The songs we used to sing
'Coz I don't wanna feel the pain in my heart
I just can't believe you're gone
No, no...
I don't wanna feel
Yeah, I don't wanna feel the pain in my heart
I don't wanna feel, don't know what went wrong
Oohh...

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wala lang...

unfair tlaga ang life,

lalo na kung tungkol sa pagibig...

once... naging lokoloko ako...

ewan ko pero nging gnun ako eh...

kapalaran ko siguro to...

haay buhay...

july.16.2006

july.16.2006
sunday


-madaming nangyari sa araw na to...
ewan ko pero mabilis ung mga
pangyayari...
pero in d end, masaya nman ako.

mgkatext kmi ni 14 halos buong mghapon,
at may ngyari na mas lalong nkpagpatibay
ng friendship nmin....
happy nman ako kc 100% na
ung tiwala nya sa akin....
dati kc, 99% lang.... hehehe... totoo yan...
ewan ko ba kung bkit ngkagnun...

eto nmng c 9, medyo mgulo kmi,
mdyo ngaway, pero ngkabati rin kmi...
iyakan b nmn kc ako...
pero ok n kmi..
un, ngkwento nman xa bout
sa mga problem nya sa family nya at
personal problem...

10 questions GOD wont ask you whenyou get to Heaven If you take the time to read itand maybe apply it to your own life...it makes youthink. : )1. God won't ask what kind of car youdrove, He'll ask how many people you drove whodidn't have transportation.2. God won't ask the square footage of your house,He'll ask how many people you welcomed intoyour home.3. God won't ask about the clothes you had in yourcloset, He'll ask how many you helped clothe.4. God won't ask what your highest salary was,He'll ask if you gave some to help others.5. God won't ask what your job title was, He'll askif you performed your job to the best of your ability.6. God won't ask how many friends you had, He'llask how many people to whom you were a friend.7. God won't ask in what neighborhood you lived,He'll ask how you treated your neighbors.8. God won't ask about the color of your skin, He'llask about the content of your character.9. God won't ask why it took you so long to seekSalvation, He'll lovingly take you to your mansionin heaven, and not to the gates of Hell.10. God won't have to ask how manypeople you forwarded this to, He already knowswhether or not you are ashamed to share thisinformation to whom you love.

monster game....

first time ko mglaro ng monters game.....
xempre... courtesy of neri ulit....
hai naku.... engot nman ung game na un....
nkkawalanmg gan nman....

wala lang

hhhhhmmmmmmmmmmm.........
first time ko mgpost sa blog na to....
diko nman to alam eh...
aun, tinuruan lng ako ng pinsan kong mkulit pero mabait...
hehehehe....
grbeh.... hrap ako ah....
hrap tlga pg first time....